new year
Posted on | January 4, 2010 |
in 2008 everything i had ever thought about anything was pulverized. i learned about grief, guilt, regret, and the complete destruction of my belief system…i learned to live without closure, without reason, and without understanding. and how to act like i was doing fine when i most definately was not. actually, the least fine i’ve ever been. i saw darkness and fog swallow my family.
in 2009 i learned that tiny moments could be okay… to focus on the small picture because in the tiny things i could feel happiness. i turned 30 gratefully. i’ve always been grateful. i’ve always been thankful. but in 2009 it was with a hint of desperation and deep understanding of loss.
in 2010 i will continue the way i am. i have no resolutions or promises to make. no expectations. but i do feel a bit hopeful. noah and chloe fill my days and my mind and my heart. i have people to love and i am loved. i have so much to make me grateful and happy.
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