new year
Posted on | January 4, 2010 | No Comments
in 2008 everything i had ever thought about anything was pulverized. i learned about grief, guilt, regret, and the complete destruction of my belief system…i learned to live without closure, without reason, and without understanding. and how to act like i was doing fine when i most definately was not. actually, the least fine i’ve ever been. i saw darkness and fog swallow my family.
in 2009 i learned that tiny moments could be okay… to focus on the small picture because in the tiny things i could feel happiness. i turned 30 gratefully. i’ve always been grateful. i’ve always been thankful. but in 2009 it was with a hint of desperation and deep understanding of loss.
in 2010 i will continue the way i am. i have no resolutions or promises to make. no expectations. but i do feel a bit hopeful. noah and chloe fill my days and my mind and my heart. i have people to love and i am loved. i have so much to make me grateful and happy.
custom portrait collages
Posted on | November 13, 2009 | No Comments
i’m officially joining etsy forces with my husband just in time for the holidays. for now i’m going to be listing new items in our bcjcreations shop.
his awesome recycled art bird houses and stamped metal jewelry are featured and i’m trying something new with custom photo art collage paintings plus some of my photo art necklaces as well.
i’m looking forward to making lovely 8×10 paintings centered around cherished photos. exciting new projects!
i caught some grief from a falling leaf
Posted on | October 23, 2009 | No Comments
fall is usually my favorite season. i love the crisp air, the golden light through impossibly bright leaves, and the smell. oh. the smell. but i think i may have ruined it this year by going on vacation right as fall landed here. i keep closing my eyes and seeing us there and feeling us there beside the ocean. it was so perfect that even my favorite season is floundering in comparison. i’m still trying to soak up what fall has to offer. i’ve taken a billion photos of red leaves. as much as i love to watch the seasons shift and enjoy a bit of cool weather…even snow…i see months of grey stretching out before me. months and months of grey.
all over the place
Posted on | September 16, 2009 | No Comments
as usual i’m all over the place with the ideas and projects i’m working on. but some nice things are coming of it and i thought i’d share.
this is what’s come of my illustration idea so far.
i started custom making these clay birds for my husband’s etsy shop.
and coming soon…a tutorial for making a transformers themed pinata.
see. all over the place.
illustrations
Posted on | August 26, 2009 | No Comments
i want to start doing some kind of illustrations of noah and chloe. i’m not sure how to begin. i love love love taking photos of them but i’ve always been into the process of taking an image from one set of materials to another. i mean, of course i have big ideas for them too like story book illustrations…but for now i think i just want to capture even more details of their childhood than i have been. it is so very fleeting.
what spawned this notion? we finally dug through the mountains of storage in noah’s room and he’s been sleeping in there for the past 3 nights. my noah who for the last almost 4 years has slept face to face with me is sleeping in his own room. this weekend i’m going to sort through the other spare bedroom and transform it into a room fit for a princess. not that i expect her to sleep in there. she just wants her own space too now that noah’s been enjoying his. so i want to make beautiful illustrations of them using my photos as a base to put in their rooms. i can’t imagine having that kind of keepsake and hope they will someday treasure them.
then i will work on becoming a storybook illustrator/fire fighter/doctor/photographer/painter.
bird houses
Posted on | August 20, 2009 | No Comments
my husband makes the most awesome birdhouses ever. i help a little but he designs and builds them all himself. the way he lets his recycled materials dictate what they will become is just so cool.
one of my faves:
BCJcreations
still through the sunlight days i wait
Posted on | July 29, 2009 | No Comments
i’ve been feeling down lately. like really down. i’m sure a large part is the anniversary of the loss of my brother. i need to get myself out of this rut. it’s bad. i haven’t made a thing lately. nothing at all.
brent and i went away last weekend and that was lovely. i ate waayy too much. so much so that i saw the numbers on the scale creep back up a bit. that felt terrible. i was down 8 pounds. i was hoping for more by now but these things take time.
the kids and i have been taking long walks every day and it’s wearing me out. they don’t even take naps when we get back. i expected more napping. hoped for more napping. still lovely.
new necklaces
Posted on | July 4, 2009 | No Comments
i’ve been working like a crazy woman every spare minute i’ve had (not many) to come up with another way to wear my photography.
i’ve hopped on the resin bandwagon. i haven’t been willing to use it in the past but of course i have been pregnant and or breastfeeding for the last 4 years. now i’m only exposing myself. it’s been fun and kind of frustrating and after numerous variations and some big failures i’ve got something i like.
these have a faceted front so it was hard to get a representative shot.
i’m in love and i’ve bought a couple new forms to try.
i’m on a promising new diet now too. it’s only been 3 days and i’m feeling good about it so far.
my sacroiliac hurts
Posted on | June 24, 2009 | No Comments
i can hardly bend and stoop right now but i’ve been to the chropractor and it’s been adjusted and now it’s just a matter of waiting for it to get better.
i have been working obsessively to design a new kind of necklace and really it’s been annoying at best. i just can’t work out all the technical stuff yet.
so i’ve not been in a great mood. i haven’t even been taking any pictures. maybe i’ll give the necklace crap up for a bit and take some cute photos of chloe. because she is always the more willing model.
Posted on | June 2, 2009 | No Comments
finished a new box today.
i just got a new haul of weird little vintage things. now i need some motivation.
